Ugh. Learning and growing is painful enough to begin with--why can't I get it right the first time?
I confessed to being a procrastinator on Tuesday, and today I need to admit to another fault: I am a jealous person. It is hard for me to see other people get what I want. Yikes--it looks really awful right there in black and white. What kind of a petty person am I? But today, it happened again. I have been working really hard for something, and I just got a very casual message from someone (and someone much less deserving, in my completely-logical-and-unbiased-and-nonjudgmental mind, of course) that made it obvious that she's having larger success with less effort.
So I started
God's glory and my glory are not the same. It's a good thing, because I don't lead that much of a glorious life. He is glorified through the big and the small, the weak and the strong. I may never write a New York Times bestseller, but hopefully I will touch someone's heart through this blog. I may never sell out any arenas with my #1 hit songs. but my daughter loves to sing with me. I may never have my own cooking show, but I keep my family well-fed. I may never be an expert on special needs, but my son lights up every time I walk in the room. God's glory isn't about the size of the action, but the size of the heart behind it.
Let's hope I learn the lesson for good this time... ;-)
Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"
Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me." --John 21:20-22
(PS Here is the last post I wrote about this passage...)